Shame
shame /SHām/
(noun)
a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behavior.
One of the first emotions I felt growing up as a young girl after having a better understanding of what happened to me was “Shame”. I was ashamed of people knowing that I had been molested, ashamed if my friends were to find out. Ashamed that a grown man, old enough to be my Father had taken pleasure in doing things to me. Every time I thought about the way he touched me and orally violated me I felt a shame. I remember seeing other girls my age wondering if the same thing had been done to them and if so did they feel ashamed. I tried to hide my shame so I never told any of my friends what had happened to me.
I remember when I first shared my molestation with my husband, I was shame of telling him the details. He’s the first any only male I ever told about it. My son didn’t even know until a month ago when I allowed him to read the introduction to the book I’m writing.
I don’t know why I felt being violated made me feel as though something was wrong with me but I felt damaged, not good enough. It has taken me 43 years to Release this and truly understand I have “NOTHING” to be ashamed of. 1 Peter 4:16 truly help me to understand that if we suffer as a Christian we have nothing to be ashamed of.
It is only by the strength and boldness given me by God that I’m sharing this so openly. But like I was Reminded Pain has Purpose and the Bible clearly states in Revelations 12:11 that we Overcome by the Blood of the Lamb and the words of our Testimony. We can never overcome something we are ashamed to talk about. Everyone of you who have testified of what has happened to you are OVERCOMERS!!!
Tell yourself, you that’s reading this tell yourself “I HAVE NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF, I DID NOTHING WRONG”!! Say the name of the person in the next statement.
“________” WAS WRONG FOR MOLESTING OR RAPING ME!!
They’re the ones who should be ashamed.
Ladies every time one of you openly share your testimony on here I Praise God because it confirms to me I am doing what God has told me to do. I say God it’s because you gave me the Boldness to share “My Story” and now This Woman is Receiving “Her Healing”!! So please know you’re encouraging me so much and I love each and everyone one of you.
Release the Shame My Sister you are Fearfully and Wonderfully Made. You are God’s Masterpiece!!!
